perma for not defending

[nullll 0]

1: My ingame name: maso 
2: My SteamID:STEAM_0:1:235157954
3: Name of the admin involved:rushaway and harraga and gbg
4: What server did it happen on: ze/sourcebans
5: Map: collective
6: Time and date:0100-0200 server time
7: Explanation of the situation: got told i was on thin ice for 'not defending' despite me getting triggers the whole time during collective session. i prefer to help the team by triggering quick instead of overdefending and dying. I didn't do anything against the rules except one time when i early triggered as leader said to not trigger. Not entirely my fault but I will accept the blame. Don't really think not defending or early triggering made the score go 2-12 but maybe from your perspective can make it look that way. if i was a random player doorhugging the whole time i doubt i would have gotten banned aswell. me not defending will not make a difference whenever people are dying every stage from falldamage or looking directly at bomb. I havent been perfect but i don't think i deserve perma whenever someone who scammed nide paypal is now LSA. cheaters get 1 day ban, not defending gets u perma
8: Proof: you can watch the demos all i did was trigger the entire session.

[Kamisama Kaneki 73]

You know you can fast trigger and defend after unti the timer runs out

But you are right normal players dont get punished at all for not shooting, except sometimes on bosses or damagecheck parts like the dragon on wester

[.Rushaway 408]

@ Harraga and @ GBGamingPC  are not involved in this ban, since I am the one who issued it.

We’ve started our end-of-year cleanup.
This year, we decided not only to wipe active bans, but also to apply bans to players who have not changed their behavior despite numerous warnings.

Reason for your ban:
Consistently having a negative impact on the server despite multiple warnings and chances to improve.

I stopped counting how many times per month your name appeared in the admin channels because of new reports about you.

During 2025, you received:

• Over 3 weeks of bans
• Over 190 days of e-bans
• More than 10 communication bans applied

I m curious what you have to said for this...