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  1. Required: Ingame Nickname: deepn Discord username: deepn8980 Age:27 SteamID: STEAM_0:0:533887874 What server are you applying for (ZR or ZE server?):ZE Why are you interested in applying for admin? I got back after a year break, interested in the game again so why not helping as an admin there if you need. Playing only on NiDE ( both servers ) and familiar with most of the admin team so I wanna help releasing the pressure on other admins by making my contribution What time zone are you active in (NA or EU hours)? EU, might be NA sometimes How long have you been playing on the server which you applied for? 5 years How experienced are you in the gamemode for which you applied? Im decent I guess however I've seen a bunch of new maps since I came back that I didn't get the chance to play yet but won't be an issue once I get to play these Do you have any past admin experience? I used to be admin there familiar with commands former LSA on ZR and ZE ( 2021 ) and ZE Manager ( 2022 ) Do you have any other skills like (Mapping, Plugins, Drawing, Video editing etc) no I am a talentless baguette
    7 points
  2. hello seven i hope you didnt have bad time recently and thats will be unfortunate so i have watched the demo and indeed you knifed a zm to the front and that zm killed some cts including harraga himslef, so the kban is justified saying sorry for breaking sv rules doesnt protect you here from getting a punishment btw so for the eban u actually misused ultima here during low gravity part in sandstorm map as it shown in the video harraga posted and that caused some cts as well to die so its justified as well. about the mute, i couldnt find an actual reason to justify the 1 wk week mute, you were talking ye but not really over leader same thing for the gag, you lost the control of yourself and let yourself driven by your emotions that lead to saying really terrible words so i will reduce both mute/gag to 1 day btw BUT PLS next time, LISTEN to other admins/staffs when they tell you to stop doing some shit ( AKA talking over leader, spamming in chat and other stuffs ... etc) if you have bad day in real life dont speak all the contexts all the way when the current time isnt suitable for that (this is not a place to bring all of your real life problems here), i believe nobody hate you for no reason, you just being annoying sometimes also stop spamming this topic, if you want to provide more info/reasons just put all of them in into 1 single reply explaining everything you have done/want to clarify (and try to be transparent), same thing goes for discord you were insulting/spamming there btw and that wasnt good try to be more mature and i hope you understand what i have told here and before in ur admin application, so have a nice day! topic closed
    6 points
  3. hello Hobgoblin after reviewing the demo and the videos' shown here i concluded indeed that it was an accident from your side you were going up with the shelf and tried to press E on the door but accidentally caded some teammates including Harraga himself an actual troll player will look behind and check who wants to cade which it wasn't in your case it was just misunderstanding from harraga side he thought you were trolling and i do believe minas is hard map to manage since so many stuffs happening around and he was the only admin active there so there was so much stress on him as already Harraga apologized in advance if it was an accident and i believe it was i am removing the eban and sorry for the trouble topic closed
    5 points
  4. Denied for aforementioned reasons.
    5 points
  5. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #425 19/04/2025 - 3AM GMT+1 (Server Time) 10 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_battletoads_a1 [Download Here] ze_terraria_v3_2 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 19/04/25 @ 3AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 18/04/25 @ 9PM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 19/04/25 @ 6:30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 19/04/25 @ 11AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 19/04/25 @ 4AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_battletoads_a1 will grant you 5 days of vip. Winning the map ze_terraria_v3_2 will grant you 5 days of vip.
    4 points
  6. 1: My ingame name: Mobile 2: My SteamID: STEAM_0:1:74976282 3: Name of the admin(s) involved: Life is a Bitch, this post is aimed generally for every staff conduct 4: What server did it happen on: ze 5: Map: ze_immortal_flame, ze_surf_sparks, ze_surf_sahok 6: Time and date: 13.04.2025 14:17 7: Explanation of the situation: I'll start off by saying regardless of what rank you are in the staff team there are certain ways to conduct yourself accordingly to situations, I dont care that this will get laughed at due to this coming from me considering my past as admin and what I was did so I dont care if this gets laughed at in admin chat, Im stating the obvious here just because you're higher in rank or near management that doesnt give you any justification to do whatever you want. Why is it that when behavior that im gonna bring is, If done by a regular admin results in them getting berated and lectured but when lsa+ do it they dont get reprimanded for it? Maybe its not so obvious but people dont really care what rank you are in the admin team, Id argue the higher you are in rank the more damage behavior like this does needless to say why. so if we believe in standards and same equal treatment for a second lets hold everyone at that. Id argue this game is on its very deathbed and it feels in general the conduct of management is out of touch, I bring that up as criticism take it as you will, call me a retard whatever I dont care but I care like everyone else does and play to have fun, so why is it that things that arent meant to be taken seriously are taken seriously? what does that result in? do you get your enjoyment from jading your playerbase and not the game? to start, today we're on mako and we notice westersand v8 is on cooldown 3 maps and there's an event in 1:45 hours. so we say why not go quick rtv 3 maps that generally people dont like to play and arent played reguarly so we can go 1 actual map where we get a good session to have fun, mind you for this to happen, people would have to RTV around 100 times, 33 something rtvs for each map. for this to happen, 3 times in a row, people NEED to WANT to rtv. so me personally I dont mind using my mic to push to happen, afterall I wanna have fun. if people disagree with me they can choose to not rtv thats fine and acceptable. since im not a liar and I respect the truth as things are, Ill go right ahead and admit on immortal flame, we force RTVed but the last person died before the vote ended so we had to play another round. so I mislead on the mic and told everyone to stay in spawn so we can die and go next round, justified behavior? not at all, this is obviously trolling and tbh I shouldnt have done it but the fact that almost EVERYBODY stayed in and listened to me despite almost all of them knowing the map and fully knowing theyre going to die (you know thats the truth so please dont waste time arguing), they choose to die so we can stick to the original plan to rtv 2 more maps to go play an actual session. in the process people knifed the zombies and I never said to do so but regardless I dont have to bring that up because im not in control of other people, I only have a voice and a microphone. the whole thing started next map, for whatever reason the whole situation which was a joke clearly and nobody was interested in playing seriously, I dont care what excuses you make to tell yourselfs this is somehow my fault because I spoke on the mic, you know very well thats not the truth. people arent tied on a leash to my voice they're free to do anything they want, if they dont want to RTV the map then they wont thats how it works. its just easier to always put the blame on someone else and point fingers. this is where my whole arguement for "out of touch" starts. I told everyone to RTV and 33 people RTVed in like 12 seconds, despite this being clear as day nobody's interested in playing the map life goes ahead and mutes me for 10 minutes for spam, I dont care about the punishment itself I care about the conduct in which its done, there are plenty of cases where im leading and there are people misusing items, spamming over me and nothing is done but for this instance where nobody is playing seriously, everybody is fixed on one goal, to get an actual session before the event and thats where the hammer is struck down? If it ended there it wouldve been whatever, but this was followed by the messages, and since this meant be misinterpreted ill give a clear description how this translates to the people on the server. Life is a Bitch: keep doing that and i ll force xwesyter <- ("stop doing something I dont want or ill admin abuse") Life is a Bitch: cause u are just in thje mood to waste map for westyer ? choice ? yes sure <- (blaming it on 2/3 people when in reality 33 people choose to do so themselfs) Life is a Bitch: then i can forcertv wester for fun <- ("I do what I want") weeed: thats an abuse Life is a Bitch: i dont care Life is a Bitch: and wasting map is not an abuse ? mdr <- (how can I abuse RTV as a regular player?, do I have superpowers to control 33 people to type rtv?) Life is a Bitch: which shit stuff i did then ?. tell me ? mute 10 retards spamming in mic ? Life is a Bitch: then dont argue to about the mute <- ("dont dare contradict me") Life is a Bitch: yes because you spam it <- (ah ok, so next time someone doesnt wanna play say mako, they can guarantee an RTV 100% chance by spamming) Life is a Bitch: stop argue <- ("stop contradicting me") Life is a Bitch: then dont say <- (didnt know thats a rule) Life is a Bitch: ok will also eban <- (threating to abuse) Life is a Bitch: cause u ll enjoy wester without item <- (threating to abuse) Life is a Bitch: its not threat can u not be a f*ckin retard. <- ("stop contradicting me") Life is a Bitch: i hope server will be full and he ll miss it <- (idk why this needs to be said, you're pretty much confirming your actions are based on emotions and are not rational) I dont care this report is this long, this was too frustrating to turn a shoulder on, I dont care ill get laughed at in admin chat and called a retard and be disrespected, the fact is if this was done by a regular admin he would be scolded and berated for giving a bad image of the staff team, so lets hold everyone up to the same standard. I know not much will happen but I know most of the server regulars reading this will agree with what I had to say. I wouldnt be surprised if I get punished as retribution but then again I fully admitted to what I did wrong in this case and tried to be as fair as possible. 8: Proof: chat logs & map demos, chat logs I provided above and are shown on discord, the demos should show me saying RTV and "spamming".
    4 points
  7. Hey IceGod, I'm giving your application a -1. You've submitted several applications, and you've also come to me personally for advice. But despite all that, there's been no real change. your motivation is still vague and copy-paste, and it's clear you're not actually applying the feedback you've received. At this point, it feels like you're just resubmitting until something sticks, rather than taking the time to actually improve. Based on that, I don’t see you as a serious or prepared candidate for the admin team right now or any time soon.
    4 points
  8. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #432 04/05/2025 - 3PM GMT+1 (Server Time) 8 Days of VIP to winners! Colours of this world are unbeliveably wonderful. Nothing can be as majestic as a bright, meticulously-looking work of craftsmanship There`s a certain beauty that anybody can unleash with their minds, isn`t there. Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_rooftop_rogue_v1_5 [Download Here] ze_v0u0v_b2 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 04/05/2025 @ 3PM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 04/05/2025 @ 10AM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 04/05/2025 @ 7:30PM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 05/05/2025 @ 1AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 04/05/2025 @ 5PM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_rooftop_rogue_v1_5 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the stage III of the map ze_v0u0v_b2 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the stage VI of the map ze_v0u0v_b2 will grant you 4 days of vip.
    3 points
  9. Hi HOBGOBLIN, I always make sure to warn players through msay so they don't get their teammates stuck if they don't know how to place barricades and to me it looked like a troll from you after getting muted for spamming while Odal was trying to lead the map. You know minas better than I do and you know that any misclick with a barricade can result in teamkilling very quickly. As you can see on that screen, you didn't even get the trigger since hEl got it first. Also, the player who killed flushr got ebanned a bit earlier than you since you seem to care enough to put it in your video. However, I would like to apologize if it was an honest mistake on your part.
    3 points
  10. Hi, @ Besty . Thanks for you application. We have seen, how you improved last month, as we noticed you play a lot on server, and always ask questions as donated, to get more experience and familiar with server. We really see potential on you, however, for now, we think you are still too inexperienced and not ready yet, so i regret to inform you that your application is denied for now. BUT take your time, keep playing on the server and you will reap the benefits. If you have any questions related to your application, you can dm me, ill be glad to answer them Application Denied Regards, ZE LSA Team.
    3 points
  11. I sincerely apologize for my mistake, I will improve it next time.
    3 points
  12. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #424 13/04/2025 - 4PM GMT+1 (Server Time) 11 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_dnd_hydra_a2fix [Download Here] ze_trend_machine_2_v1_25 [Download Here] ze_bioluminescent_v1_1 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 13/04/2025 @ 4PM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 13/04/2025 @ 11AM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 13/04/2025 @ 8:30PM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 14/04/2025 @ 2AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 13/04/2025 @ 6PM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_dnd_hydra_a2fix will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the map ze_trend_machine_2_v1_25 will grant you 3 days of vip. Winning the stage I of the map ze_bioluminescent_v1_1 will grant you 1 day of vip. Winning the stage II of the map ze_bioluminescent_v1_1 will grant you 2 day of vip. Winning the stage III of the map ze_bioluminescent_v1_1 will grant you 3 day of vip.
    3 points
  13. CSS Zombie Escape Event #423 12/4/2025 - 2AM GMT+1 "Winnable!" "Winnable Winnable Winnable!" "14 Days of VIP to winners!" Maps to be played ze_sele_s2 [Download Here] ze_cyberspace_v1_s [Download Here] ze_eschaton_a2_1 [Download Here] Times of the Event France (Paris) 12/4/25 @ 2AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 11/4/25 @ 8PM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 12/4/25 @ 5.30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 12/4/25 @ 10AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 12/4/25 @ 3AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules Rules will be enforced strictly during the event, no mic spamming or trolling of any kind is allowed! Leader Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward! Rewards Winning the last stage of the map ze_sele_s2 will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the last stage of the map ze_cyberspace_v1_s will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the first stage of the map ze_eschaton_a2_1 will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the last stage of the map ze_eschaton_a2_1 will grant you 5 days of VIP!
    3 points
  14. I watched the demo in question. You boosted a friendly zombie toward CTs twice. Boosting friendly zombies ahead of/toward CTs is not allowed. It causes the team to panic if they don't realize the zombie is friendly. The zombie can also hit triggers and fail the round. Because your request for an unban was polite, and because the round was not failed due to your actions, I will reduce it to 1 week, of which there is about 3 days remaining. Please be careful in the future as additional bans will become longer and longer.
    2 points
  15. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #431 1/05/2025 - 3AM GMT+1 (Server Time) 8 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_silent_hill_2_illusion_kn1 [Download Here] ze_night_cinema_pre2 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 1/05/25 @ 3AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 30/04/25 @ 9PM GMT-5:00 India (New Delhi) 1/05/25 @ 6:30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 1/05/25 @ 11AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 1/05/25 @ 4AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Leader @ dsvdsvd . Winning the map ze_silent_hill_2_illusion_kn1 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning each stage of ze_night_cinema_pre2 will grant you 1 day of vip. (6 stages)
    2 points
  16. Required: Ingame Nickname: LowParty Discord username: lowparty Age: 21 SteamID: STEAM_0:1:150507906 What server are you applying for (ZR or ZE server?): ZE Optional: (Feel free to answer one or more questions) Why are you interested in applying for admin? I have been playing for more than a year since my last break, and honestly I didn't think about applying (besides the double application with wanderer that went bad lol), but lately something made me want to try getting admin again, as I would like to help once again the only server where I have mainly played, gave me some good memories and where I met some good friends, so I would like to help to keep it like that for everyone. Sure my history on sourcebans (I mean all punishments) might not be the best for a retired admin that wants to come back, I am the first to admit it, so I am sorry for that behavior, but I can say it wouldn't be the first time for me where I leave something behind to focus at doing my job as admin. What time zone are you active in (NA or EU hours)? I just play on EU hours. Usually on the evenings, sometimes on the mornings and nights. How long have you been playing on the server which you applied for? I started playing on NiDE ze in 2017. How experienced are you in the gamemode for which you applied? I have 5.5k hours played and I can say more than the half are on zombie escape, since I don't really care about other game modes or being the best at bhop/surf. I have enough knowledge to take actions over most of the maps (that doesn't take away the fact that yeah im a noob sometimes) and I know most of the community. Do you have any past admin experience? I had donated admin sometimes in nide-css.ru, then as there was a lack of admins on the new nide.gg (2019) I asked Batata and Klixus to give me a chance and let me help the server as admin, one year later I got promoted to LSA before I retired. Do you have any other skills like (Mapping, Plugins, Drawing, Video editing etc) Last year I tried to get into mapping, got some basics but nothing unusual. Wouldn't mind get into it again if I had to help the server with it.
    2 points
  17. Accepted! Welcome back to the admin team. Topic closed.
    2 points
  18. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #429 28/04/2025 - 1AM GMT+1 (Server Time) 6 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_frozentemple_b8_2 [Download Here] ze_swamp_crypt_v1_7f [Download Here] ze_gods_wrath_v3_8b [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 28/04/2025 @ 1AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 27/04/2025 @ 7PM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 28/04/2025 @ 5:03AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 28/04/2025 @ 9AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 28/04/2025 @ 2AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Random Weapons!!! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_frozentemple_b8_2 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the stage I of the map ze_swamp_crypt_v1_7f will grant you 1 days of vip. Winning the stage II of the map ze_swamp_crypt_v1_7f will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the map ze_gods_wrath_v3_8b will grant you 1 days of vip.
    2 points
  19. 2 points
  20. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #428 26/04/2025 - 3AM GMT+1 (Server Time) 7 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_treecolada_v1_3 [Download Here] ze_rizomata_s2_1 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 26/04/25 @ 3AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 25/04/25 @ 9PM GMT-5:00 India (New Delhi) 26/04/25 @ 6:30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 26/04/25 @ 11AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 26/04/25 @ 4AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_treecolada_v1_3 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the map ze_rizomata_s2_1 will grant you 5 days of vip. View full record
    2 points
  21. CS:S Zombie Escape Event #428 26/04/2025 - 3AM GMT+1 (Server Time) 7 Days of VIP to winners! Discord: Event Timestamp IP: css.nide.gg:27015 Steam: NiDE Steam Group Maps to be played: ze_treecolada_v1_3 [Download Here] ze_rizomata_s2_1 [Download Here] Event Times: France (Paris) 26/04/25 @ 3AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 25/04/25 @ 9PM GMT-5:00 India (New Delhi) 26/04/25 @ 6:30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 26/04/25 @ 11AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 26/04/25 @ 4AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules: Rules will be strictly enforced during the event! Voice and Chat spam will not be tolerated and may result in penalties without warning. Any type of trolling will have severe consequences! Rewards: Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward. Winning the map ze_treecolada_v1_3 will grant you 2 days of vip. Winning the map ze_rizomata_s2_1 will grant you 5 days of vip.
    2 points
  22. As of this message, the VPN detection system has officially been disabled for the foreseeable future. There were several reasons behind the original decision to add this system, and several reasons that led to my decision to disable this system. The main reasons are the backend performance and the effort it takes to maintain the whitelist. As such, I will now lock this thread until further notice. Thank you, everyone, who adhered to the rules!
    2 points
  23. Maybe instead of asking why your mute is too long, think why you got muted from the beginning. I played on Nide for 3 years and i have only 1 mute history before i was an admin. If you want to be respect, then show to other people your respect first.
    2 points
  24. This isnt one of those seeking help topics or something like that, its just a way of sharing some of my not so happy experiences with the comunity and letting people who maybe are in the same situaition or a similar one: you´re not alone. Ive had drinking problems for some years now, it all started back in college when I was around 20, im 30 now so, 10s years ago give or take. I didnt have the will to drink nor smoking to much, I did it like regularly from time to time with my friends. The I got to college and I got lost in the crazy party live that college is. Met a girl, we stayed together for 4 years, she ended up leaving me for my drinking problems mostly, and I cant really blame her, since I wouldnt even date myself if I looked in the mirror back then and watched the monster I had become. I smoked joints too, not so much regularly but every so often. This life in college lasted almost 6 years. When she left me and I stayed there for two more years just working, paying my bills off and trying to get by and I was it with a severe depression, which I never really at the time looked for any professional help and I cant even say if clinicly it could be diagnosed as depression. The sympthoms of depression can vary from people to people, some with deeper and more severe levels that can even sometimes lead to suicidal thoughts, others with mid intensity level and others with just a glimpse of it that after some days it just completely disapears. It went like this for me: at first it started slowly, I still continued to party and do the crazy life when I could to bounce it off even if just for a few hours, but I just felt like nothing made sense anymore, even the things I loved to do like videogames and guitar for example just felt like a chore to me. For two years I was always like this, which is also the reason I eventualy decided to quit Arch/Design which I was studying at the time. I started working and I still stayed there for those two years, hiting on girls from time to time, getting wasted, doing all that crazy life. Over time in these two years my depression got worse. There were moments that could just last for minutes, hours or even days, when going to sleep was a way to get "high" and not feel anything for that time period. On days off or on free time I just stayed there, in a room alone, looking at the walls, sometimes crying and regreting that she left me and all the crazy stuff I did and the drugs I was a slave to, because at the end of the day, even things like cigaretes or alchool, altought not heavy like, for example, cocain, are still a type of drug, can ruin your live, sometimes make you numb to something like depression or other times make it even worse. Those days alone in a dark room sometimes I would get wasted at home until I went to sleep without feeling anything anymore, wake up next day, repeat it, other times I would just lie in bed, or comfortably numb looking at a wall for hours and hours. Eventualy I started getting some suicidal thoughts, thinking things like "what If I just ended it all? Would the pain go away?". These thoughts never really got to a point were I would actualy finish it all cause I didnt have the courage and im glad I didnt. At that time I decided it was better to return to my hometown and move back with my parents, by this point I was around 26 almost. I did that, I found a new job and during the next two years I would just balance from one job to another and find the next thing. Over this period of time I decided I want to do a half-degree in programing and It systems while working during the day and studying at night. This lasted for two years, I got a degree which would make me transition and get a job as a programer which I still have to this day and now im in the middle of my second year of computer enginiring. This part of my life got satisfied, I also didnt have to much trouble since I had always been good with computers and as long as I studied and went to class my marks were top notch. During these years the depression still just stays to this day as something that sometimes comes and goes. Its not as bad as it used to be. I started eventualy doing cocain and I got much better control over my alchool adiction. I never got the point where I needed it everyday, thats what a true junkie and crackhead is, their mood swings and they start getting paranoid if they dont have it every couple of hours. These days im trying to quit everything, I still smoke daily, although not as much as I used too and I only drink and do cocain like every two months or so when I have a relapse and the depression hits harder one week or another. After my last relationship I never got a girlfriend again, Im just too much afraid the same thing happens again since my last relationship took a piece of my mental sanity with it, and even though deepdown I wish I started something new with a new girl I just stay confined to my comfort zone, which I know is wrong if you dont take risks, but at least here Im safe. I hit it and quit with girls from time to time and I keep it casual. The depression now just has phases, which is normaly when I have a relapse and end up on alchool and cocain for like one night, eventualy it gets me numb and after somedays I recover and everything goes back to normal. Some weeks im more motivated, other im less motivated, and other weeks Im just here trying to stay alive with no will to ever leave my bed for whole days, but even so, i continue to fight against these demons that have posessed me and my adictions are much more controlled. I want to get to the point where I completely finish it for good. Thanks for letting me share, not trying to get any advice or anything, just letting some steam off and letting people in the same situation know they are not alone. In fact, I think this condition is pretty common these days with millenials and gen z. Unfortunatly.
    2 points
  25. im not aware of a rule that says you're not allowed to influence or tell people to rtv, maybe because there are plenty of ways around it / implying it. also I see you doing the exact same thing on maps you dont like so you yourself dont believe in the point you've brought up. so you think theres a chance im right to report admin abuse threats? so you're implying theres a chance that what was shown here was fine? that threating to getting ebanned to preemptively try and kill my enjoyment is ok? that it might be abuse? maybeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my mistake for making a Big Deal out of this whole thing, maybe I should get accustomed and not complain about getting threatened and potentially admin abused
    2 points
  26. What's up everyone! Long time no see Finally decided to hop on this forum and see how everyone's been doing as of late. I've been pretty busy with life recently but am hoping to get on ZE somewhat soon (and damn it, pump up those server numbers). @ Tex , I seriously need to get your discord info. Our brief chat last year really helped me a lot.
    2 points
  27. CSS Zombie Escape Event #423 12/4/2025 - 2AM GMT+1 "Winnable!" "Winnable Winnable Winnable!" "14 Days of VIP to winners!" Maps to be played ze_sele_s2 [Download Here] ze_cyberspace_v1_s [Download Here] ze_eschaton_a2_1 [Download Here] Times of the Event France (Paris) 12/4/25 @ 2AM GMT+1:00 USA (New York) 11/4/25 @ 8PM GMT-5:00 India (Delhi) 12/4/25 @ 5.30AM GMT+5:30 Australia (Sydney) 12/4/25 @ 10AM GMT+11:00 Russia (Moscow) 12/4/25 @ 3AM GMT+3:00 If you don't see your timezone here, you can convert GMT+1 by clicking on this link. Special Rules Rules will be enforced strictly during the event, no mic spamming or trolling of any kind is allowed! Leader Anyone willing to lead will get some extra VIP days as a reward! Rewards Winning the last stage of the map ze_sele_s2 will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the last stage of the map ze_cyberspace_v1_s will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the first stage of the map ze_eschaton_a2_1 will grant you 3 days of VIP! Winning the last stage of the map ze_eschaton_a2_1 will grant you 5 days of VIP! View full record
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  30. If you bring back deepn you must bring back clowface for me to +1
    2 points
  31. Good luck to you old friend +1
    2 points
  32. former manager with alot of experience and knowledge, easy +1
    2 points
  33. we have decided to accept you in the admin team welcome back @ Maus !
    2 points
  34. Unkban this awesome player . He doesn't troll I am a witness and I see it . He is very chill cool guy . Unban him please . KBAN ME INSTEAD BUT DON'T KBAN UNNAMED PLEASE. BlooD is my ingame name kban me . Unban and let go unnamed .
    1 point
  35. Hi @ XiMiK , thanks for the report! First, I would like to clarify that it is best to not insult admins in your appeal. Even if you disagree with your punishment, it is best to remain civil and polite in your post. Second, we often adjust the punishments of players with long history of infractions. Because most admins don't have the time to check punishments immediately, the immediate duration of punishments might not be correct for your case. Since you have had a long history of infractions, we have increased the duration of your punishment. By extending your punishment, we hope to you (and other players) will learn to not troll and improve as a player. Enjoy your stay on Nide! Topic closed.
    1 point
  36. 1: My ingame name: HOBGOBLIN 2: My SteamID: STEAM_0:1:126454312 3: Name of the admin(s) involved: HA 4: What server did it happen on: ZE 5: Map: MINAS 6: Time and date: 2/5/2025 ~2pm est 7: Explanation of the situation: HA, probably in a fit of rage, decided to eban me due to an accidental cade while opening a door. The eban was 60 minutes in length, yet the action caused no casualties and was simply a fault of the engine due to me being required to hit E to open the door on stage 3. 8: Proof: ze_lotr_minas_tirith_v3_3.bz202.05.2025 @ 19:18 --> Demo VIDEO PROOF HERE
    1 point
  37. Good to see you sir, welcome back!!!
    1 point
  38. Event Finished! All VIPs rewarded and Thanks for coming
    1 point
  39. ze_night_cinema_pre2 link is erorr not downloadable https://fastdl.nide.gg/css_ze/maps/ze_night_cinema_pre2.bsp.bz2
    1 point
  40. +1 i remember you were a good admin years ago, and unlike some former admins you've never trolled
    1 point
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  42. Give this sucuk a chance +1
    1 point
  43. I don't think it was an accident when you were clearly looking up and tried to boost that one zombie twice. As for the mute, I gave it to you cause you were not being honest when you said it was an accident since you obviously wanted to ruin that round. And you typed some insults in the chat after which I gagged you then you took an item just to troll. So I've decided to increase the length of the punishments at the end of the session since you have a long history of both spamming and trolling. Also, it's no secret that people get annoyed when they hear you talking on the server because you talk nonsense 24/7 hence you have 62 comms blocks. I understand that sometimes you're just trying to be funny and get along with players but the problem is you don't know when to stop. EDIT: Also, I literally have no idea why the RTV stage of simpsons_extreme is mentioned here, which confirms what I said. Thank you for proving me right
    1 point
  44. Good Application Dude, support other admins, you are active player and Donate server from your side. Good Luck +1
    1 point
  45. +1 active player, is also nice to everyone, sometimes willing to lead even if he doesnt know the map, good luck bro!!.
    1 point
  46. +1 nice guy always keen to learn and help players
    1 point
  47. Do you reckon maluma is still alive? Or did the argentinian cartel finally bust a cap up his ass? If not, he would have been all over this app suckin yo dih On a different note +1
    1 point
  48. While this is a valid report and will be handled as such, you should still refrain from making such remarks against players in a public forum. I understand you have personal biases and negative interactions with them, but reports on forums should still be handled in a professional sense.
    1 point
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